In 1997, she explored automatic writing and drawing which she practiced until the words came to her head in a voice lodged above her own torn consciousness. Struck with anathema, the pain mounts, intensifies and her soul is lost.
She is interned urgently in a psychiatric hospital. She leaves it unable to write, gives up drug treatments and begins a long journey of rebirth.
She internally recites two mantras found in a book on Indian spirituality until her mind is cleansed. Psychoanalytic work, realizations, research, experiments and spiritual and physical practices give her back her mental balance and her autonomy.